It feels so sweet, then, to remind myself that I don’t have to smash out an answer right that minute if nothing feels right yet. I don’t have to know what I don’t yet know. I can simply keep living with this question running in the background, trusting that clarity will arrive in due time.
At first I felt a little guilty about this-- as if I was building protection against someone. But actually, it is simply for me, in support of me and my own energy. Rather than feeling this shield as a barrier between me and the person I'm interacting with, I walk into the situation feeling whole and safe already. This allows me to interact fully and warmly, without holding back for fear of being overtaken or attacked.